The Struggle is Real: What to Write?

I honestly don’t know how many people read my blog posts. It usually depends on the content. Ironically enough I get more views on a post when it’s about my struggles than posts where I am trying to encourage.

To be honest…I’ve struggled with what to write. I’ve started and stopped MANY posts but I feel like they’re not good enough. Do my posts even help? Why do people want to read about my struggles?

At this time in my life I am happy. Probably the happiest I’ve been in the last few years. I finally have my anxiety under control. I’ve found a purpose for my life and I’m starting to make the Midwest my home. So what do I write about?

Well…I could write about getting sick twice within the last month with colds. Or how my husband and I started to open our home to groups of people twice a month. My daughter is on the verge of walking without her scooter. My dogs keep running away. My husband and I are training to become foster parents. We’re also preparing the house and bedrooms for these teens to come stay. Oh, and I’m enjoying A LOT of tea these days. Earl Grey is my favorite, but I still drink my morning cup of coffee.

Life is busy and full of change. I see our lives transitioning into a different season. In a good way. We’re preparing our home, hearts and minds to help teen girls. I know my busy schedule now will look so relaxing once we start receiving kids in our home. So no worries there will soon be lots for me to write about. But for now — this post is random.

For those few who read my blog what would you like to read about more? Would you like for me to be more transparent with my posts? More posts about mommy tips? Healthy food recipes? What I’ve read lately in my Bible studies?



Preparing My Daughter for Battle


“I looked up at my 17-month-old daughter who was quietly eating her toast. That’s when it hit me. I need to prepare her for battle.”

I was sitting at the breakfast table with my daughter. Scrolling through news stories when I came across an NBC story about micro chipping children. People with both opinions talked about reasons for and against this tiny microchip. Some believe it will keep better track of your children just in case something bad happens while others say it’s another way for “Big Brother” to track you.

I started digesting the article. Then my mind quickly went to the several hurricanes, earthquakes and fires we’ve had in the recent weeks. Not to mention the outpouring of hate towards others and their beliefs. I looked up at my 17-month-old daughter who was quietly eating her toast. That’s when it hit me. I need to prepare her for battle.

This beautiful little girl with such joy will one day face this world. There are many days I honestly believe Jesus will be coming back. No one knows the exact time but God. However, he gives us warning signs. Signs that seem to be unfolding all around us.

“Then they will deliver you to tribulation, and will kill you, and you will be hated by all nations because of My name. 10 At that time many will fall away and will betray one another and hate one another. 11 Many false prophets will arise and will mislead many. 12 Because lawlessness is increased, most people’s love will grow cold. 13 But the one who endures to the end, he will be saved. 14 This gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all the nations, and then the end will come.”

Matthew 24:9-14

It’s not hard to look at the world and see hate. But there is also love, compassion and grace. That is who I want my daughter to be. I’m always thinking of new ways to prepare my daughter to walk, read, and be a sweet lady. But preparing her for this world is my top priority.

I need to teach my daughter to have a strong relationship with God. I need to teach her to put on the full armor of God each day. I need to teach her to be prepared when someone challenges her beliefs. I need to teach her how to respond in a loving way when her beliefs are being attacked. As her mother I cannot send her out in the world unprepared to face these battles. She may not win all of them. But I want her to stand firm in God. Always seeking Him for strength.

“It’s not hard to look at the world and see hate. But there is also love, compassion and grace. That is who I want my daughter to be.”

To me, this world is growing darker. The stuff I see every day honestly scares me. Even more so now that I am a mother. After having my daughter, I look at the world through her eyes. As much as I want to protect her, I know it’s my responsibility to prepare her to be ready. The world she grows up in will be far worse than the one I know unless Jesus comes back. My daughter is only 17-months-old right now, but it’s not too early to start.


I try to read her God’s word each day. I try to have worship music on throughout our home. My husband and I also agreed to start letting her sit through the worship service at our church. We want her to have a strong connection to God through worship and music. But I also realized there is something else I could be doing right now.

I need to start with me. I am not as close to God as I once was. I’ve struggled with depression and trust issues with him over the last year or so. But I know when my relationship is suffering with God I cannot be a good role model for my daughter. She will not see the woman she needs to become. Even if I teach her differently my daughter will adopt my attitude towards Christ, not my words.

If you’re like me, I encourage you to join me on this journey. Maybe you have an older daughter. It’s not too late to start now. We as mothers impact our children more than we know. It doesn’t always seem true. Especially if you’re repeating yourself about the same things.

“Mothers, the greatest gift you can give your children and family is a true, deep, overwhelming relationship with God. It won’t be easy and no, it won’t be painless. But it will be worth it.”

Moms, I encourage you to find that path leading to a better relationship with him.  It’s our job to prepare our kids to leave our home. So why not prepare them for this ugly world? Which means some of us (me) may need to work on ourselves as well.

I would love to hear from other moms about what they do to help their children and themselves grow closer to God. Leave your comments below. Feel free to share this post with others.